I'm too tired to speak. I'm too tired to feel. I'm too tired to see. I'm too tired for everything. A week past so fast. I couldn't believe it. I thought today is still one of the weekdays. There's no homework for this weekend. A rest from troubles.
Here comes another trouble. I thought you'd let go of it. Seriously! Let bygones be bygones. There's no need to hold on the grudge for that. They were just playful. Why can't you just forgive them and give them a chance? They apologize, they tried to communicate for you. What did you do? You shun them.
A 2 years plus friendship must not sink down here and right now okay? You know what? It's not fully their fault. You've got fault too. You don't forgive and never forgets. This thing is still haunting all of us. Stop saying you can't. You can, if you want to.
I'm so tired after school and CO today.. I'm so tired after this disappointment.. I don't want anything to happen between us, our friendships. Is that an impossible request from me? I can't think anymore. What you all are thinking. We're drifting apart, apparently. It's like.. I'll live my life, and you live yours. We're nobody but strangers.
Enough of that disappointment. Class ends later than sec 2. I'm so not used to it. During CO, tried my very best to remember how to play. I tried my best to change my bad cello habits. And a 2 years habit can never change that easily. My skin peeled off on my left finger. My blister burst on my right finger. It hurts. Not as much as my heart.
I managed to finish this off without vulgarities. Scolding them inside me. But sometimes at somewhere else. So stop this.. Disappointment = Bad mood = Irritation = Tears flowing down your cheeks.